A Reflection And New Beginnings!

Right now I'm writing this in 2016 and by the end of writing this it'll be 2017. All day I have been reflecting on 2016, thinking about all the wonderful times, along with all the tears which came with it.

In 2016 I turned 18. Turning 18 was amazing, but strange because I could do a whole lot more than what I could do before. I'm an 'adult' now. A month after I passed my driving test, something I never thought was possible at the time, but I passed first time!

In June I went to London with my best friend for the first time not on a school trip. I learned that I love London and travelling is something that I really want to do. I had my very own first car in June too and my life has never been the same since.




















 In August I got my AS Level results back and saw that I had passed all my exams!! The grades were not brilliant, but I failed them back in 2015 so this was a huge achievement for me, despite crashing into the college wall just before getting them.... oops! 

In September I started my A Level year. I also decided that September was time for change and time to invest in myself instead of others. In September I realized that I needed to focus on my future and my health. I knew that I would be in college every day in the week and working both Saturday and Sunday on the weekend. I also knew that A Levels were really important and that I needed to really focus on them and revise and be organised. This is when I realized that I needed to change something in my life. I made a very long, hard thought out decision that I didn't want to be in a relationship anymore. In 2015 and 2016 I invested the majority of my time in my relationship. It wasn't an easy decision to make, but it was one which was going to make me happier in the long run. I also learned that it is hard to let something go when you have tried so hard to make it something. This is where I realized that in order to make something special it takes more than one person to do so, it has to be mutual.

However, I didn't take the break up so well myself. I was supposed to invest in myself but instead I found myself forcing distractions. I'd be going out with friends all the time. That was good, however it wasn't so good that I was too tired to go to college the next day, or too tired to do anything at all really. Until the end of September where I crossed paths with someone I used to know. It's weird how the past repeats itself. It's also weird how you can still feel the exact same about someone in an instant as how you left. So, I started dating someone who has been very special to me for years.

(Sorry Steff!)

The last three months have been brilliant for me. I did after all invest time in myself, along with my education, my friends and my family. In 2016 I realized how special family was. Family is everything. It doesn't matter how dysfunctional my family can be sometimes, I still love it. I love trying my best for them, I love helping them and most of all I love the idea that I can make them happy. I am ready to invest in everything in my life in 2017, no matter how hard, how tiring it will be, because the reward always comes at the end.

I'm ending the year with the best people. I have my wonderful family and friends. Also my boyfriend which I am super excited to spend 2017 with, after all it took us way too long to come this far. I met some wonderful people in 2016 and am leaving some wonderful people there too. For those who I am leaving behind, you made my year a special one. I never forget but I will always move forward.

What about blogging? Blogging has also brought me wonderful things this year. I have met some wonderful people and I have never felt so part of something in this wonderful community. I took the plunge to go to London for a blogging event, which was something I never thought I would do. I entered the world of PR which was another thing I thought I wouldn't do. Blogging has also taught me a lot of coding, which actually helps a lot! I also got a bunch of lovely bloggers together to join me on another blog, this was the best part!

I haven't been blogging much at all the last few months because I have been shying away from it. However, in 2017 I'm hoping to broaden my blog and change it up entirely.

So here's to starting fresh and to new beginnings! Happy New Year, have a lovely one!

XOXO